Many friends read my blog or chit-chat and gossip with me online and tell me in admiration woah Guo Rui you're having the time of your life!!
But you were all wrong my friends, coz Blog and MSN are meant to deceive, meant to glorify life, meant to be a mask of smiley face.
Have I ever been happy since I came to America? Well maybe. Occasionally.
I never felt really 'fit in' back in Singapore, and neither do I here in USA. I don't understand their jokes and I wanna be charismetic as I was in China but I can't. I'm just a funny, nice, friendly and funny China man that's all. And God I hate that. I just wanna be myself again but I am not.
Some people may say look at things in a positive light man don't be so narrow-minded. But I know what really happened. I have been 'lost in translation'. And it's all just part of growing up.
I started to realize that all these sour feelings r not helping me. I can't be stuck in self-pity forever. I need to save my life.
And I just figured out how. I figured out that life is all about striking a balance, to find the mode of lifestyle in which you get the most utilities, what's really good for you and not what people deem good for you.
And I think I've found it. The balance of my life.

leaving skool guoyandao at 12:29 PM [comment]

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Comments:

Oh I c...I also thought u were having the best time in ur life ever.

But anyway, strongly agree with you on that life is about "what's really good for you and not what people deem good for you."

And I think if you ARE charismatic, you will always be. This is a gift in you that can't be lost even if you try. Just give yourself some time. =)

Cheers,

syl

# posted by  Anonymous : 8:57 AM

 

Thank you! You always have the sweetest words for me=)

# posted by  guoyandao : 1:57 PM

 

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