2004年圣诞在纽约

零摄氏度的温暖
城市的车流在身边穿行
一切的喧闹
纷扰
尘嚣
归于霓虹灯下的寂静
我坐在哥伦比亚大学里看城市
古老的建筑守着它们的孤独
于是回想起时代广场
那一片灯红酒绿
这土地不同的风景
预示生命中异样的色彩
我想
每一棵树都有自己的故事
每一个人都有自己的季节
2004年的圣诞
在纽约
哥伦比亚大学
我看到了我的春天
我要不顾一切的追赶


leaving skool guoyandao at 9:28 AM [comment] (1)

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昨天看了一下传说中的梦里花落知多少，看看这个跟我同姓的才子到底有什么能耐。
一开始我还真看进去啦！北京式的贫嘴真是精彩，发现他不是我想象中的那种缠绵悱恻的写手，而是个幽默诙谐的写手。太好了。但是我看着看着就有点失去了兴趣，这就是爱情？这让我想起韩寒的三重门，偶有十分精彩的幽默，但是里面描写的爱情我已经想不起来了。大多数看过的爱情故事都已经想不起来了。比如在梦里面，主人公林岚是因为跟一个第三者不清不楚的一个拥抱，被她的前男友看见了。然后林岚就跟人家打手机解释。打了三天也没人接。一气之下就跑过去跟人家闹分手。他男友因为事事都顺从她就答应了。最后她发现人家手机不接是因为手机丢了。然后就大哭一场。
这就是爱情？那爱情也未免太索然无味了吧。
又或许，这就是爱情。这就是现实生活中的爱情。许是我还没经历过的原因，爱情就是这么平淡无奇和婆婆妈妈。
我一直向往的那种爱情在哪里？赤名丽香在哪里？王小波笔下的那些女子在哪里？美女与野兽的故事在哪里？有没有超越一切世俗的爱情？


leaving skool guoyandao at 1:14 PM [comment] (0)

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今天去打篮球，居然看到一个熟悉的面孔跟我打招呼。一时怔住，那不是杨升林吗？？！！！！
当时感觉我一定是在做梦，怎么想也想不通这个问题。
杨升林来了，和孙阳她们一模一样的program。还有三个女生一起来。其中两个还挺可爱的。
生活要发生改变了。


leaving skool guoyandao at 1:20 AM [comment] (0)

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我挺脆弱。
回想以前跟新加坡人交往，一副嬉皮笑脸毫无正经的样子。虽然在中国时也是这样。但总觉得有点不一样，我对有意义的讨论已经失去了兴趣了吗？因为通常，严肃的讨论对思维的刺激绝对比廉价的搞笑更令我享受。
最近有点想明白了。原来我是一个脆弱的人。一旦跟别人用一门我不精通的语言作深入交谈，我就会恐慌。我怕显出自己的无能。所以我选择了搞笑，保全轻松融洽的人际关系。
真没劲。原来我一直在逃避。
抛开虚荣，坦然面对，让自己真实起来。



leaving skool guoyandao at 11:29 PM [comment] (0)

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I was reading the management shit when I came across the following lines,
"People who want to be liked by everyone are not prone to engage in conflict. Consequently, people who are effective in exercising power are those who are independent enough to not need approval or intimacy with others."
The "independent" can also be interpreted as "strong". Although I don't really agree with the statement that "independent people are those who don't need approval ." I have to say that this whole shit makes a lot of sense.
That was basically a perfect comment of me.


leaving skool guoyandao at 10:02 PM [comment] (0)

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I'm sitting in compute lab now and there is a stunner sitting 10 meters across. She is the most beautiful american girl I've ever seen. And considering she's doing a hard-as-hell CSE 110 project, which I have no clue about, all on her own, she's definitely not a blonde. I mean blonde blonde. She is blonde. Oh what the hell. That made my day.


leaving skool guoyandao at 11:02 AM [comment] (0)

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归根到底，人都是孤独的。
从精子和卵子相遇时候那八百万分之一的概率起，人就是独一无二的。人生经历千千万万，能有一两知音相逢实属幸福。
不过孤独不是精神空虚，孤独的人可以活得很充实。
很多人都在颓废，那是因为他们没有参透人生的真谛。人生的真谛很简单，就两个字：
务实。
真正懂得这两个字分量的人，才是高人。
务实，才充实。
我现在还是一个俗人。


leaving skool guoyandao at 6:43 PM [comment] (0)

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在法语课上给同学放周杰伦：七里香中我最喜欢的歌曲止战之殇。他们都交口称赞，我心花怒放。顿时觉得，周杰伦是个为国争光的英雄。
承认也好，不承认也好，我们都是流行文化的俘虏。对于大多数普通老百姓来说，刘翔，姚明，周杰伦在世界上受欢迎，也许比中国什么什么技术领先全球要实在的多。我不认为这是一件坏事，每个人都有自己的流行英雄。你也许在心中痛骂十面埋伏，但当外国人向你竖起大拇指称赞的时候，第一时间涌上心头的还是民族自豪感。


leaving skool guoyandao at 6:34 PM [comment] (0)

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A typical plan of mine:

430pm: Reach home. Check mail. Read newspaper.
6pm: Eat dinner at dining hall.
7pm: Reach home from dining hall. Do computer programming
9pm: Programming finished. Take a little break. Chat on MSN.
930pm: Break ended. Start on French composition.
1130pm: French finished. Take a little break, listen to Jay Chou.
1200am: Starting on Management reading.
1am: Everything done. Go to bed.

A typical night of mine:

430pm: Reach home. Check mail. Search through the favourites in IE. Surf internet for the next 2 and half hours.
7pm: Hungry. Run to dining hall. Meet some pretty girls at the dining hall. Flirt.
8pm: Meet some other friend on the way home. Hear about a concert going on with free food. Hesitate. Decide to go anyway for the free food.
9pm: Concert over. Free food finished by the line in front of me. Curse. Go home.
915pm: Reach home. Start on programming.
916pm: Programming is boring. Take a little break, watch a teen sex comedy.
1045pm: Teen sex comedy finished. Review the hilarious and hot scenes.
11pm: Back to computer programming.
1105pm: Computer programming is boring. Take a little break. Listen to Jay Chou.
1110pm: Jay Chou is so good. Search for his rap lyrics online. Learn the rap.
1130pm: Panick. Find out that programming homework is due in the afternoon the next day. Proceed to French Composition.
3am: French composition finished with incessant sleep and waking up. Full of errors. Can't be bothered. Management reading.
3:00:23: Fall asleep on the desk.
7am: Wake up. Try to finish management reading.
7:00:23: Fall asleep again.
1030am: Management class starts. Still sleeping.
11am: Wake up. Screw management reading. Start on programming.



leaving skool guoyandao at 1:30 PM [comment] (0)

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