Thursday, December 09, 2004

我挺脆弱。
回想以前跟新加坡人交往,一副嬉皮笑脸毫无正经的样子。虽然在中国时也是这样。但总觉得有点不一样,我对有意义的讨论已经失去了兴趣了吗?因为通常,严肃的讨论对思维的刺激绝对比廉价的搞笑更令我享受。
最近有点想明白了。原来我是一个脆弱的人。一旦跟别人用一门我不精通的语言作深入交谈,我就会恐慌。我怕显出自己的无能。所以我选择了搞笑,保全轻松融洽的人际关系。
真没劲。原来我一直在逃避。
抛开虚荣,坦然面对,让自己真实起来。



leaving skool guoyandao at 11:29 PM [comment]

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I wanna go back to: Semptember 1999, woodstock
I wanna meet: Belle
I wanna be: a beautiful lunatic, a rock star, a wandering poet, Brad Pitt, Arthur Rimbaud, 令狐冲, 谭嗣同


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